// thoughts

Ok I guess I am going to bring out some of my problems here for all to see. Sorry if it brings you down or whatever but you have the choice of reading it or not...

I don't get this...I really don't. If you buy somebody something as a gift for their birthday, Christmas or whatever occassion it is, they are supposed to accept it right since it came from you and it was something you thought about getting them?

Whenever I buy something for certain people in my life they seem to "not like" it or "not need" it and they want to return it and get something else. Every single time, I guess next time I'm just going to give them money instead of taking the time to think of a gift and then them returning it anyways.

Should I be upset? Should I be hurt? I really don't understand, it's every single time, but when someone else gets them something they love it, it's the greatest thing to them in the world at that moment in time. But when they open my gift, "they don't need it," or "I should have gotten something else instead."

Makes no freakin' sense to me. Christmas Spirit = -10 This is soooooooo ghetto. That's another way of me saying that this sucks.

edit : ok I've calmed down a bit from being "hurt" and had returned the gift, I figure I'm just going to give cash but do it in a creative way (haven't figured that one out yet). Lesson learned - you can't change the people around you, but you can always change yourself.

I remember hearing that from one of the councils in Kali. They said that if you are having problems with someone, don't expect that person to change for you but rather take the first step and change something that you are in control of, you. Change something so that the problem will be resolved, humble yourself.

+ mon

I haven't eaten breakfast in forever, I think ever since the retreat. Usually I'm fine and I can wait til lunch to eat, but sometimes if I take a bite of something before I get really hungry!

My firm gives out apple pies for the holidays to all the employees so I got mine this morning. I wanted to taste it so I just had a few crumbs of it and now I'm starving!

MmmMmM apple pie a la mode sounds sooo good right now! That's applie pie with a scoop of ice cream

+ mon